Wednesday, October 25, 2006
(: 8:56:00 PM
today got fire drill...6 mins!nvm...also got live firing!since d last time,due to d rain,we didnt shoot...lucky nv rain again...waoh...firing seems so cool!though shoulder a lilttle red from d shooting...but its really great experience...after d shooting...same routine again...checkin for empty cartridges...half of us had metal detecter checks tis time,tink mus be due to d time...d last time,every1 of us had to be checked with it...said d oath n all....nvm...
m i suppose to be feeling lucky?or unlucky?how could he miss it?!but is it suppose to be lucky tt he missed it?omg...omg...wad m i gonna do!?tink i should be feelin both lucky n unlucky already...i really didnt meant to do it!i didnt even noe it was with mi!o dear...how!?how!?
(: 8:53:00 PM
waoh...jus a few hours...n im starting to miss u already...carn wait for fri...cuz tts wen u will be back!enjoy yorself there!
Sunday, October 22, 2006
(: 10:41:00 PM
hadnt bath for 2 days already!feels really great to sweat wen i was bare-topped at a friend's hse painting...n i enjoyed it?dunno y i enjoy doin things...hands on stuff...n i loveeeeeee it!especially makin things!my friend's 2 month old kitten...wow...was thirsty...well i didnt noe at first...i thot it was toilet-trained as it wen to d toilet...onli to noe tt she wen inside d toilet bowl n starteed lappin at d water...ewww...o well...2 month old...wen we were 2 month old we did silly things too rite?
loveee cats!really love them...love dogs too!well prefer cats to them...mus be d long exposure i had since young...aiya...i love animals!im a animal lover!jus too bad i dun have a animal companion myself...
goin back to sch tml...really starting to miss it...all d holidays n mcs...prefer to stay at sch than at home...there is where i feel more at ''home''!o well jus have to wait another...7 hrs 45 min more?alrite gtg...take care out there people=D
(: 10:26:00 PM
yesterday was Deepavali...it was also my great-grandmother's 90th birthday!no shes not indian...
wen to my grandmother hse where it was celebrated...wow...cousins can sure be irritating sometimes...was playin games with them...ask them to shoot then shoot,but they alwaes like to shoot for no reason...even resulting in mi blowing myself up!but they can still be cute...sigh...their smile on their faces wen the irritated mi kept mi from being angry...it was so natural,so...pure n full of happiness...carn bare to wipe their smiles off their faces can i?so i continued letting them do their thing...which resulted in mi restarting the same mission for...lets see....50 times?nvm...it was worth it...helped out in d preparations...there were mahjong sessions...well adults onli...n d food!jus too bad they wun veri nice...but well...i eat to live,not live to eat!
was feelin a little out of place...no teenagers ard...luckily,ni really appreciate my phones company,or shall i say d person on d other side...hope i didnt waste too much of yor message!
at night...watched channel u...LOL...hu eva watched it d 1 at 11.30,will noe y im laughing...u too...lol...thx for telling mi to watch it...really needed some laughing=D
slept on d sofa tt night...small n uncomfortable...i tink i sprained my neck from slping on it...o well....
Saturday, October 21, 2006
(: 1:48:00 PM
came back from sch on mon,began to feel nausea...then the waves came...wow...u wouldnt like it...back for ppl hu wan to lose weight fast...tis is d method...dun go try it!it bad!10 20...uncountable times...until i was cramps in d stomach...really hated it...couldnt slp at all...got an injection to supposedly stop d vomiting,but well didnt work much...was diagnosed with gastrical flu,d one tt lots of students was having...''how did i get it?n where!?''i dunno...tried to go to sch but couldnt,was too weak to even move,didnt eat till thurs...2 day...lucky im used to missin meals...
went back to sch on wed,was still a little unwell...wow...d teachers...miss kok n mrs ang...though u might alwaes see them scolding here n there,but they can be caring too...but a little too much!asked bout 10 times if i wanted to go home?!went for ncc training later on tt dayalmost vomited again...had soc(standard obstacle course),n i was in charge?waoh d wall n rabbit hop,n leopard crawl...used to be alrite for mi...(used to it)but thx to d sickness....was so tired...well at least we accomplished our goal...train d cadets(onli got 1 part b!?n d rest is part a)n made them real tired...
(: 1:29:00 PM
18 sept...31days since then...thot it might seem impossible to be able to see her name appear in my phone anymore...but....waoh!!!a twist of events!!!was feelin so sick...came back feom d doctor again...n wen i checked my phone...woah!i couldnt believe my eyes!!!it was her!!!tts gotta be d haooiest,opps,i mean happiest news ive gotten since my results n sickness came!!!
ive got so much i wan to ask or say...but...im jus not a person hu ask a lot or speak a lot...onli wen ppl ask or talk bout it...then i can talk much....damn...wan to chat with her,but dunno how to start!so si bai...need lessons on how to carry on a converstaion already!
Monday, October 16, 2006
(: 7:37:00 PM
29 days...29...sigh...been so long since tt fateful day...i...i...sorry
(: 7:23:00 PM
exams r over...but life jus still seems d same...or even worst...tryin to occupy myself wid things to do...to try to run away,but i jus carn hide...cuz its in mi...tryin to do wad i said i would do to help u...im still tryin...
try to keep myself happy n smiling...but wen no1 is around...it all comes back...if i could keep at tis for a longer time,then im sure i would be able to do wad i said i would do,though...my heart...no more tis kinda talk,u wouldnt believe anyway...wishin i didnt have to anything tt had made u lidat...regrets?too late isnt it?
im dumb...relly dumb isnt it?tryed to express myself but ended up losing trust...try not to express myself,jus like an empty shell...
trust...sigh...d 1 thing tt every1 take so lightly,but its importance...unmeasurable...
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
(: 3:00:00 AM
today was supposedly gonna be a gd day for mi...movies...but it was cancelled...i onli knew wen i asked bout it...waoh...its okay...1 of d few rare occasions wen im allowed to go out...now?sigh...not blamin any1 really...jus really thot i could have some fun finally,but...was stuck at home reading story bk n watching movies...on tv...got a horror movie...hmm...nc 16...well its jus scary?nothing much...but anyway thx a lot guys for at least askin if i wanna go for movies...well its d thots tt counts...
end of exams means a few things for mi...hsework,lots of kopi kia duties,etc...n holidays!i hate them!
Saturday, October 07, 2006
(: 9:26:00 PM
seein is believing?dun eva believe tt...eva...cuz wad u see might nv be d truth...still...there might be some grain of truth in it...sometimes wen u feel tt answers r rite in front of yor eyes,they might not be true...behind every truth there is a even deeper truth...n sometimes knowin d deeper truth behind d truth is better,n many misunderstandings can be avoided...investigate deeper,find out all d facts be4 u place any judgements on wad u have seen...understand d situation,d history...cuz everything tt u see is interlinked with each other...certain things happen for a reason,or maybe cuz of an accident...
misunderstandings happen very commonly,as usually wad we see is d truth...tt is y believes,trust,etc,r all very impt...wad u see...have u thot over it with all other factors relatin to it?
bein blind is d best...we carn see...so we have to depend on other senses,n even new senses,which we hardly use now come into action...we listen we our ears,but do we listen with hearts too?no matter or gd an actor is,we still can hear if they r tellin d truth or they r lying...all we have to do is liten with our heart,our brain is also there 4 a reason,to reason out with wad we have seen or heard...touch can also be used to ''see''d truth,xcept it si by feeling...we can also feel with our hearts...we can feel how much or wad d person is feelin...
our senses,our heart,our brains r there 4 a reason...use them wisely n with gd effect,for they can help u in many different ways,to make tis sense''feelin''come to life...tis is wen u start to treasure things,treasure times,memories,where...peace can be found...
we use d sense of sight too often already,but try bein blind for a while...d startin will be difficult,but cuz of these,the sense of''feelin''comes bout,n even without seein,we can find our direction...tis feelin differs in many ways...like knowing tis difigured person is yor family member,or some1 u have never seen for so long,u will still have a feelin tt u know tis person,a sense of belonging whether isit to home,sch,or else where,etc...too many ways...we hardly use it...onli wen we lose something like our sense of sight will be surface...it is alwaes there...jus tt we want to use it or not...or shall i say whether we allow it to come into our lives or not...
so start feelin everything now,treasure everything,every minute every second of yor life...see with feelin n u will get the deeper truth out of things...n so on so forth...for every misunderstanding made...frenships,relationships,family ties,anything,might be broken,with d chance of bein able to patch up again...
Thursday, October 05, 2006
(: 8:11:00 PM
tonite...it will all come out...everything...jus hope i can take it...n tml...a new person i will be...i hope...