Monday, September 29, 2008
(: 7:44:00 PM
back from F1!working not there for seeing...hehe...all deaf and beaten already...the cars sure are deafening man....and they sure can ''fly''!crash crash crash....the cars crashed so many times....ran over a guys leg and almost hit another guy...ai seh...they gonna be working with them!o well...ferarri almost won but too bad about the cock up between the teams doing the maintenance...really took off precious seconds of the clock man...wasted...hehe...anyway enough bout F1...going on to more important matters....and that is...LAO PO!=D
could go home with lao po on the second because the taxis they provide have to go by areas that the part timers are staying....sorry ar lao po...hmm....we were in different suites and they were on both ends of the level...so really kinda seperated...but nonetheless...we still found time to go see each other....lao po...thanks for helping to cut the fish into pieces while i was out helping them have way during my lunch...=Dthanks=Dwas really worried that lao po would get injured during work as she is so much scepticle to injuries than many people ...even more than me!good thing she was quite careful...but was really worried when she injured her wrist...and her legs...guess shes still not used to working in this kinda line...hop ure feeling better now...especially when u fell ill during the week of F1...hearing those heavy coughs...i feel really guilty that i didnt take good care of you...really sorry about that lao po..really sorry...even with the barley and preventing you from having those cold drinks and making you drink more water still did not help much...really hope you get well soon....i feel really bad not able to get what you like...and unfortunately, they are the things that makes your cough worst...so get well soon kay?
really sorry about that being able to go oout with you today...my family condition is really getting worst...my dad ignores me now...and only grunts as a reply to my questions....my mum...scolds me and questions me a lot....sorry bout that...will really make it up to qing ai de...really hope we could be together 25 hrs a day everyday...but its not quite possible...but i will do my best de lao po...i promise...lao po...i really really really cannot get you off my mind even for 5 mins...i love ya=D
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
(: 9:16:00 PM
so many things have happened...too much...lao po...really sorry bout today...the promises will be kept...hehe the next time it happens will be the day our baby is born...so many years ahead....=Dreally really really really really love you lao po...theres not much i can say bout today already...it is to be kept out already....the star was really bright today lao po....really very bright...=Dcheers to happiness forever=D
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
(: 1:53:00 PM
W.A.M and nothing is gonna change that...=D
lao po surprised me ystd....really shocked sia...but nonetheless was happy yet a little not happy at the same time...happy because u actually did such a thing unhappy because u waited so long....i dont like to keep u waiting...im sorry bout letting u wait last times but i really still dont like to let u wait...so dun do it again kay?nonetheless im happy that u did=D
after the surprise we had our lunch and went somewhere of great importance both to people as well as to us...we did something there that is usually not done by people at this time and it was of really great importance to us...so important that that nothing else matters already....lao po...everything said and promised there will never be broken...our fates are sealed together le...nothing shall seperate us...nothing...W.A.M!!!!!!!!!!!=Dthe rest for only us to know about....hehe=DI LOVE YOU=D
Saturday, September 13, 2008
(: 4:50:00 PM
my heart is really aching!!!once i heard uve injured your leg i literally jumped out of my seat n gave u a call...after that i really couldnt concentrate in my class anymore...i left half an hour earlier...really could bear...i wanted to see u badly see how bad the injury was....heart was racing...mind was in a whirl....then few hours later...when i heard it was quite a small an injury...i thot to myself...such a small thing got me into this state...what would happen if it was a big thing?this was how much lao po,u meant to me...although small to you...but big to me...lao po...u must really take good care of yourself when im not by your side...ure really so prone to injuries...u must really take good care...i'll try to be by your side ever single hour but its not that possible for now...so...please take good care?i will protect you with my heart but other than that u yourself must take care not to allow yourself to get injured....alrite lao po?
Friday, September 12, 2008
(: 9:37:00 PM
mooncake job for the whole of few weeks...finally over in a blink of an eye...i thot i would always miss a job..but i guess im not missing it...other than the times lao po n i had as well as the people there!our sticker company manager!lol assistant manager...really hate mooncakes already...seen,touched and smelt too many of them already!haha...
we packed mooncakes, pasted stickers, folded boxes,made deliveries...hard work!haha...well...all these we did together lao po and i...although on many occasions we had to be seperated due to me being sent off to make deliveries...the feeling really is lousy and really spoils the mood...but...looking forward to seeing lao po after the delivery makes me go on...=Deven got cookies from famous amos for lao po on 1 of the deliveries as a little bu chang to her...though its not much but its the least i could do...=D
the times that i look forward to even more are the times we spend together at the playground till 3 a.m in the morning...the things we said and done...really memorable...=Dhehe...especially when u start saying things things that u dun even rmb u said!?=pi will always remember those words...
lao po...i might be talking less already but that doesnt mean ive changed or anything...its because ive now gotten more things to think about, care about,i need to make loads of decisions small n big here n there...so ive become steadily quieter...i hope this doesnt affect things between us...as u have known..i always think of things many years ahead....and im also planning for both of futures...many concerns...so this is the bad point that has to come in a relationship...i'll try to speak more,to accompany you to talk as much as possible...the rest i hop actions will tell...=D
i know ive mentioned bout there are things that do not alwyas go by the way we want them to,or for the result to be like u perceived but...i will adapt de...thats what it is about relationships...adapting into each others lives....and i will do it...for our relationship's sake...=D
ive to get used to the silence...u do not need to change for that....maybe this way we can really adopt the telepathy thoughts way...where we know what each other is thinking without saying a word....maybe it will come down to this 1 day...
time is going really very fast when we are together and believe it or not...its 2 days to our 2nd month together...too fast...i really wanna spend 25hours together with u every single day if u get what i mean....lao po...i really dun wanna miss even a single second not being with you and if its really possible...i would actually do it...but no...its always that fair...and being apart from each other would make us cherish each other even more...i really really do love you a lot lao po...too much...my heart really yearns for you right now...so much...soo much
Sunday, September 07, 2008
(: 3:25:00 PM
the stars that night seemed extremely near that night...that night we were in the playground...the night we slept under the stars...when i looked at u as u slept...i felt so peaceful...i really felt so much love for u...lao po...when i kissed your forehead i made a promise to u to take care of u forever...i really wanna make sure that everytime u sleep u would have the same peaceful look on your face...the same happy lao po that i knew...i promised to make u the happiest lao po, n i will stick by it again...the times we were together...short 55 days together and we have been through so much together already...cried together..braved the rain,watched the stars,fought the sea literally...ive been stupid...trying to be somebody...that person that u saw during ncc work any other places...im never gonna do that anymore...im gonna face u every single time using ME...im gonna let u be able to say yes...i know u...n not everyday ure somebody...lao po...we have both fallen too deeply...so deep...so deep...i really love you lao po...i really do...the feelings are as we have said...goin stronger by the day...n as u are in malaysia right now...my heart really aches for u...it really does...the promises that hangs on my neck...the scars on my forehead....all reminds everything that we have done...even if my family really breaks apart now my whole life comes crashing down like the waves...i will still be strong...for i know...that you always be there...for u...everything is possible...for u...everything seems worth it...and for u...i will do it...nothing else matters anymore....only...your happiness...the stars in the sky...they are not enough to match all the reasons to why i love you so much...i ran out of them before i even came close to pass the starting of the reasons....u really mean a lot to me lao po...u mean a lot...theres only 1 thing i can confirm will never change bout me...n that is how much i love you..no matter what happens...no matter what happens...i will love you
(: 3:19:00 PM
dad is really disappointed with me...so much so that he has given me up already...he does'nt acknowledge me anymore...not even talk...mum...can really tell shes disapponited yet at the same time, trying to help me...this family is really breaking up...i really don't want it to happen...i really want to keep it together...yet i have made too much mistakes already...even to u lao po...ure family to me already...the last that i can really be with already...i swear i'll do my best to save this family...earn money to support family n u lao po...give u all the care n concern...i swear...
(: 3:06:00 PM
grandma...y do u have to go through so much suffering???parkinson's disease isnt really the main cause of your suffering...but yourself...y cant u allow yourself to relax???y???in a moment notice u can just become well,when ure in the hospital taking the same medicine u can be well the whole day...not only once but all the time...so many times already...so many shows that u can actually be well on your own...yet y do u choose to let yourself suffer???i know we al know u can...thats y dad scolds u thats y every1 cares...but when u dont let yourself relax...its making every1 frustrated...im not...but every1 is already...especially dad...he has sacrificed most entertainment a proper job frens,loads of things to be there for u just in case anything happens....yet...im not blaming u grandma...i really just want u to allow yourself to lead a better life...every1 can help u...but if u dont help yourself first...we cant do anything at all....ah ma...we really love you no matter how stubborn u may be...we want u to enjoy your life before u join grandpa in heaven...we want u to be happy...and it really hurts to see u suffer especially for a decade already...u have become so thin...we are really hurt to see u like that...hais...ah gong i heaven...please bless ah ma to be allow ah ma to not suffer anymore n enjoy the years she has...we really want her to be happy...i really do...