Loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with the person but for the person to be happy;
Saturday, December 27, 2008
(: 10:16:00 AM
christmas...a time for giving and sharing...but did u know it was also a time for being with your loved ones?
my christmas?it was with ncc...meeting in the afternoon and thereafter...with lao po baby...although it was short 1 hour at her house...but...well...it was worth it...=Dgave her the little present i made personally...a yellow and green house with a red door and roof...=D
the pictures will be uploaded soon so...wait for it to appear....
3 things u need to know bout the house...
1) its VERY fragile 2) its has in depth meaning 3) it was made purposefully
indepth meanings....well....firstly with this house...and the residents inside...2 pigs,1 hippo n a doggy...its my promise to give u a house...for now since ive mentioned it,i thot of letting u see it...so that...well u can feel that its there....the house wasnt very well furnished and inperfect...made purposefully,it signifies that no matter how inperfect our relationship might be, the result would be the happy family inside the house...so this i ask for u...no matter what happens,please...trust me...kay?and lastly,every single brick used to make this house...it isnt the same,be it the size,length...again it was made purposefully...letting u know this every brick = every step/part of our relationship is different...when laid out=our start of our relationship it will be shaky,cause the foudations are not set yet,but when the bricks have all been laid out...it would be strong....this is what im telling u...at the start...it will always swhaky...sometimes to the extent that it is almost collapsing, but please please stay on,hang on...it wont be shaky soon...it wont be...this wall needs both of us to keep it from falling...i need you...i really do...
Monday, December 22, 2008
(: 11:35:00 PM
blood is thicker than water...i finally get to see it first hand...and i...hehe
Sunday, December 21, 2008
(: 12:43:00 PM
i know ive been away from this blog for a very long time...i apologise for it....just that so much has happened...from all aspects of my life...too much...
things that happened before comoon test will always be a memory that i will never forget...a place to learn from...for now the focus will be the future...surprisely many things have now taken on a new start...surprisely...
NCC Central has recently taken on a new chain of command...all the mess being cleared, and a new start for all of us...my grandparents mother's side...they have moved on and are going to get a new place to llive in...finally...there is 1 very very important thing...which is very close to my heart...in fact its residing in it...and that is my relationship with you...
so many things have happened between us...and im very sure it has really strained our relationship...in fact too much...things werent smooth sailing for us like it was at the side...i knew this was coming...nothing will ever remain this smooth...and its all my fault for letting this rough tides to hit us...even my apologies seem so...too common till it became just another word...it doesnt have any meaning anymore...the mess that has been created...like u said would have made any other original lady leave me...but...you stayed on...you...and i...we have not given up on this relationship because of the rough tides...we,i think i can say we...are staying on...because we believe we can get over it...and retrieve the good times,if not,make our own good and sweet times together....
promises i will keep, problems i will solve, feelings will be back, times will be smooth, love will be strengthened...all this i will never let go and forget...that sunshine after the rain i promised will come...and im not gonna let you wait any longer...
i wont be over mature anymore...to give you back the secureness...i will be the 1 solving the problems...so that u wont have to do it by yourself anymore...i understand all that u have been doing...i really do...
all the small thing everything that you do can never escape my sight, or my heart...you chose to change the subject everytime i went into talking about things so that i would affect the mood of the rare times that we were together, so that we would be able to enjoy the times...u sacrificed enjoyment your fillness of the stomach just for me to save money or even time...but just too much...you work on things yourself...because of all the things that ive failed to do...you dont wanna see another failure from me...so you chose to work on things yourself...even if you know...i can do it...but there is still a chance of failure so...there are just too many things...some overated but some...for the pure kind and caring heart that u have...
i admit...you now have totally relied on yourself....no more...nothing else is being relied on me even things that in a relationship that should be relied on the guy u have chosen to rely on yourself...i feel...useless...but what can i say?after all that ive failed in...how can i ask you to rely on me even in things that i can really do?i dont blame...i never will...
things wont be the same again...i dont care bout other things anymore....actually i have already done so...im gonna make things right again...and im gonna maintain it this way...no matter what happens...im gonna do it...uve suffered too much...too much...
ive finally understood what 2 teachers back in sec sch said to me..."you are gonna be a heartbreaker when you grow up"...i see why...
my family broken up, losing contact with friends, screwed up my ncc life, my studies, my own life,all for good cause...for the 1 person in my life...that is you...its all planned out...this my fate..."to learn when i fall, to pick what i left, to fix what i have,and to cherish what i had"
its gonna be a new start...no more overmature talks,no more thinking over the limits,fulfilling what i have to do an what i must...and to take good care and most importantly protect what i love the most...
fix, solve, protect everything....especially you....nothing else will change that...i WILL make you the HAPPIEST lady in your life...i swear with my heart...i swear...
love ya...=D
me;
SEBASTIAN TAN :D
18 years old
6th of march
NCC
Attached to MOO
nothing matters to me more than your happiness (: